Girl With Mannish Shoulders Pretends She Hates Attention In fact, supposedly Evangeline Lilly wished she was ugly. She says, "I spent many nights crying myself to sleep wishing I was ugly because of the way men leered and disrespected me..." and then, "You feel like they're paying to stare at your ass when you're walking away from the table." Then she had this picture taken by a professional photographer: Yeah, she makes no sense to me either. I think I can speak for all of us in promising we have no desire to stare at Evangeline Lilly's ass.